Whispers In The Wind

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I wanted to share a moment I had today with this song. I know probably everyone has heard it at some point. I want you to listen to it again. Listen to the words and I want you to vision the lost ppl around you, family, friends, co-workers, the lady working the register at Circle K, the young lady in Walmart that looks full of anger, and hurt… there are so many things and ppl around us that went through my mind when I was listening to this song. Then I had a flash back from about 5 years ago, It was probably 3 or 4 am, I was sitting outside on the steps, I was drunk and listening to this song. I remember listening to this song over and over again, actually several drunk nights I ended up around Godly stuff. See at this time I had recently walked away from everything I knew, my brother had died and it turned my world upside down, my two teenage boys were acting up, to the point where I cried almost every night, I was working 2 jobs, trying to be the best mom I could be because my kids were my world,  in church, in a small group, trying MY hardest to do this God thing.

Even being in church I was dying a self-induced spiritual death, I was dying because I wouldn’t let anyone fully in, yes including God, or should I say ESPECIALLY God. I knew of God, I knew I pretty much believed in him, I had seen miracles in my life, Angels when I was near death several times, so I knew he was real. I just didn’t think he was for me… I didn’t think that he loved me. I mean, come on… If he had loved me, he never would have let me go through everything I have been through. Almost no one knows my full story but there had been lots of pain and very close encounters toward death. I flipped when my brother died, left church, left my small group, stop talking to ppl from church, funny thing is?? It was my way of protecting them, I knew I was slipping bad, all I wanted to do was drink, party, numb the pain. ALL the pain, an entire life of doing the “so called right things” and having it screw me over. I loved my girls, the hardest thing was walking away from them but I couldn’t chance taking them down with me, so I vanished. One day im gonna finally sit and write about all of this for ppl but until then…. Anyway, drunk listening to this song.. wanna know the weird part? Even though I had walked away from church, from God… I often wondered if anyone “Heard Me” did anyone truly understand the pain, lost, hopelessness that I felt inside?

Let me ask you the same thing I asked myself today… Do you hear them??? Do you??? Do you hear the cries for help, the screams of desperation for a way out, a plea for hope…. Do you hear her???? OR have you become so comfortable in “doing life” that you have forgotten where you came from? Have you forgotten how broken you were before someone shared Gods love with you, before someone SHOWED you GODS LOVE. Let me tell you who did that for me, Pastor Shannon Richard. She showed me unconditional God love, through every drunk text message, through every hangover. She never gave up encouraging me, She never grew tired of reminding me of Gods plan for me. My life and who I am has changed because of God and because of 2 women, Shannon Richard and my amazing mentor Tasha Guidry. They invested God’s love into me. Who are you investing God’s love into??? We talk about changing the world, but what part are you playing in the change?? We pay things forward, acts of kindness, which I love love love doing, but how about paying forward ministering to someone who is lost and broken???

You want change in your life??? Then get Radical about God’s Love!! Wake UP, OPEN YOUR EYES, & BE THE CHANGE.

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Private Accusations

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Often times we are critical and place judgment on things we know nothing of… Judging the hearts and souls of those that are seemingly heartless… They seem to walk through life with no smile on their face… no bounce in their step… no laughter in their eyes.. We assume it’s because they are heartless… there are instances where it may be true but there is also a silent truth for the others… The ones who aren’t heartless… they are merely lifeless… on a journey without end… eventually they become the very thing they hate… there is no control over the heart.. it loves when it loves… trusts when it is hopeful… dreams when it has vision… sacrifices itself with a painful understanding and shuts down when the pain is too much to bare… Each person was once a little all American boy or a precious little girl.. full of hope.. Dreams.. Love.. Innocence… Until something or someone showed them what pain was… understanding this starts a slow fade in the heart… We assume they choose this but I don’t believe they do… Becoming this way I believe is caused by a series of events or by one great painful event causing the heart to react in the only way possible…. When pain so great is caused it stops your heart from beating… in order to try to protect itself ….it stops breathing… forgetting pain… becoming numb is it’s only focus… it’s art of survival…. the only way it knows how to slowly move along with life… So when you see this person on the street… in your local market.. in your church… in your home… Don’t let your private accussations take hold… Don’t judge the lifeless… Dont call them heartless…Say a prayer for them… because chances are you have absolutely no idea what killed them… pray one day… if they are lucky… they will breathe again…